a beautiful mess

  • By Lynette Chan
  • 07 Dec, 2019

“You are so beautiful.”

She stared, wide-eyed, at her lying jerk of a boyfriend, frozen in the doorway, stunned.

“Steve?”

He turned and swore under his breath.

“Carla? I can-”

“Who’s she?” the other woman in the bed with him looked at Carla with distaste, as if she was the problem.

“Who am I? Who am I?! I’m his girlfriend! We’ve been together for 7 years!” The shock faded away, replaced by hot, burning fury.

“Wait! I can explain-!” his voice trailed off as she stormed out the door. How could she have defended him to her friends? Her family? Everyone?

Carla got into her car and started driving somewhere, anywhere. Tears streamed down her face as she swerved wildly, searching for an escape.


After driving for a while she spotted a lively bar, filled with happy people. Carla messily parked her car and walked into the crowded place, envious of other people’s joy as she headed to the counter.

“What will it be?” The bartender asked, watching the woman drop down into a chair.

“Your strongest. And keep ‘em coming.”

“Coming right up.” As Carla waited, she watched the people around her, celebrating some stupid thing that would probably mean nothing in the future. She threw back drink after drink. All her friends had been pushed away a long time ago because Carla had defended her idiot boyfriend. Her family was still in Hong Kong, halfway across the world from Chicago.


She was completely and utterly alone.


Carla fumbled in her purse for money. She came up with a pile of coins which she pushed towards the bartender, who took them sympathetically.

“That should just about cover it, right?” Her words slurred.

“Maybe I now have an idea on why that jerk cheated on me!” She walked out of the bar, the cold air nipping at her skin. As she stumbled to where her car was parked, she saw it being towed away.

“Hey! You can’t do that!” She weakly raised her arm, watching her mode of transport get carried away and the lights blur.

“Great. And I thought my night couldn’t get any worse!” She cursed into the cool night air. She needed a way home, she needed a cab.


As she stumbled down the street, she wondered how this could happen to her. With each step she cursed and cried over the man she once thought of as her soulmate. A sound made her turn back - it was a speck of yellow.


“A cab! I need to catch it!” Carla staggered into the streets, waving blindly. The lights grew bigger and bigger as the yellow started to come into focus, followed by a screech and a thud.


“Oh my god, are you okay?!” A panicked voice yelled.

“Who are you?” Carla groaned in pain from where she lay on the very uncomfortable pavement.

“I’m Nick! You were about to get hit by a car! Are you feeling okay? How much did you have to drink?” This Nick person was really starting to get on her nerves.

“I’m fine, I’m fine…” She lurched to her feet, straining for balance, before promptly falling over.

“Really? You don’t look fine to me.” Nick offered a hand, which she reluctantly accepted.

“I’m not fine! Is that what you wanted to hear?! My boyfriend of 7 years! 7 years! Cheated on me! And I drank enough to knock out a horse! And I nearly got hit by a car because I needed a cab! Because my car got towed!” Carla ranted at a stunned Nick, who backed away slowly.

“That sounds… like a lot.” He shoved his hands inside his pockets, twin spots of colour appearing high on his cheeks. “Well...my place is just a block away. And you look a bit wasted. You wanna come in for tea?”

Carla softened, and she studied the stranger. She was tempted to say yes, but she recalled her boyfriend and how the image of him with another person had hurt her so much.

“I-I shouldn’t. I’m just gonna head home,” she mumbled. “I should get some sleep.”

“Understood.” He chuckled, “I guess I’ll see you around?”

“I guess.” She smiled back, they started walking in their seperate directions when Carla turned back, “I haven’t thanked you for saving my life yet…so...thanks.”

“No problemo,” Nick replied cheesily.

“Maybe the world will get better,” Carla mused to herself as she strolled down the empty street. “Maybe one day I’ll love again.”  


(To be continued...)


By Lynette Chan January 31, 2020

“Passage for Scythe #316, please.” A card was thrown upon the desk as the tired guard looked up at its owner.

“Radley Ames, on assignment to… London?”  

“Yup, that’s right.” Radley nodded.

“Ok then,” the guard said, “you know the rules?”

“Yea-”

“No interacting with humans, no deviation from your assignment and no bringing back anything from the mortal world. Once done, guide your assignment to the rehabilitation centre for it to start training as a Scythe.” The guard leaned over, opening the gates of Styx.

“Thanks!” He grinned as he darted through the gate. Just in time, the train was arriving. He jumped onto the train, full of other Scythes on their way to their missions.

“This stop: Central Styx. Next stop: New York, America.” The female voice crackled through the speaker. Radley sat down with a sigh and cracked open the file, it was going to be a long journey and he still hadn’t checked who his mission was. His mission was… her? He hadn’t seen her since he died, 37 years ago. He ran a hand through his spiked hair; he was suddenly glad the train ride was going to be long.


He was back in his hospital bed. There was a voice, loud and disturbing. He turned to see what was happening. Was something wrong?

“No, he can’t die now! He’s too young and I refuse to believe there’s nothing you can do!”

“I’m sorry, it’s out of my hands. At best, I believe he has around 3 months left.”

Her sobs grew louder, almost drowning out his panic. Something was on his cheek, a tear. Then suddenly the sobs were fading and the room was spinning…


“This stop: London, England. Next stop: Barcelona, Spain.” He stumbled out the door, cursing under his breath. He mulled over the memories he had seen and forgotten long ago. His time in that dull room was an old phase of his life and he had already started a new one in his un-life as a Scythe. Thoughts spun round and round his head as he stepped through the portal into Charing Cross station. He looped through and around people; though he was invisible to the swarm around him, he still didn’t feel like bumping into people. He stepped outside in the cool weather, savouring the chilly bite of the breeze and the Picadilly Circus. However, he couldn’t stand here forever, he had a job to do. He pulled out the file to check the place of death. Died of old age in her home while asleep. “Shes always wanted to move here. I never really understood why.” He chuckled to himself.


“The doctor says you haven’t got long. We’ve only got a few more months before...” She trailed off,

“It’s ok,” he smiled sadly, “we’ll just have to make the most out of it.”

“There’s still so much for you to do! You haven’t even finished school, and we still haven’t moved to that nice flat near the Picadilly Circus.” Tears were quickly wiped away by a rapid hand,

“I stll don’t know why you want to move there.” Sad chuckles were exchanged as they relished one of the few moments they had left.

There was the door, all he had to do was walk through it. He didn’t even have to knock; just take a step through the door. She was just another mission that he needed to fulfill. No big deal, just go in and guide her to the training centre. He had been doing this everyday since he finished training, it wasn’t hard. He sighed, it had to happen sooner or later. Reluctantly, he stepped through the door and found… absolutely nothing. “Where is she?” Radley thought to himself, He started looking around the messy apartment, looking for clues on her whereabouts. There were unfinished knitting projects, half-read books lying around and so many photos of her and him and his family. One in particular caught his eye, right before his death, of him and her and the hospital. One last happy moment, taken a week or so before his passing. As much as he wanted to reminisce, he had a mission to carry out. “Where would she go?” Usually after people die, they loiter near their place of death, it wasn’t often Radley had had to hunt them down. Then out of the corner of his eye, another photo, thrown half-hazardly on a chair. He picked it up A family picnic, in Green Park. “Of course” He rushed out of the flat, this was one of her favourite places, of course she’d go there.


“Who wants the last sandwich?” She announced to the family,

“Me! I want it!” a girl ran to the basket hurriedly,

“Nope Sam, it’s mine” Radley smirked, snatching it out of her hands.

“What?! Noo! Mum!” Sam whined, Radley took a bite out of his stolen good with a victorious smile on his face.

“Radley, I-I need to talk to you” He turned and saw her face, pale and scared, and he knew. Something happened, something terrible.


“Okay, I’m here now. Where is she?” He looked around happy families and green shrubbery. He wandered around the park, looking for her among the small crowd of people enjoying their lives. He watched benches, picnics and ice-cream vans, she seemed to be nowhere found. There was one last place he hadn’t been yet. The fountain. He had a feeling she was going to be there, but he couldn’t bring himself to go. He headed there with a heavy heart, each step reminding him of his old life. And there she was, just sitting there. Watching everyone. It was time.

“Mum?”


“Mum?” He questioned as she lead him to the fountain, “What’s wrong?”

“I think it’s best if you sit down for this.” she sighed as she guided him down,

“Well, the doctors called-” she started,

“And?” Radley asked,

“You, um,” She sniffled, “You have cancer, lung cancer.”. His eyes widened in shock, he was only 15, how did this happen? “I’m so sorry,” she embraced him, “but we can get through this. We will.”. He never saw the tears falling from her eyes.


“Radley?” Her voice was barely a whisper.

“Yep. Hi mum.” He smiled through the awkwardness,

“Wait, I don’t understand. Am I dead? Why are you here? Are we going to heaven? What happened?” Question after question that he needed to answer.

“Well, we are both now deceased,” he paused, giving her time to digest, “I’m here, because I’ve been assigned to take you to Styx.”

“Styx?”

“Yes, there’s not really a heaven or hell, it’s just like the real world, except with new jobs and experiences. It’s like life after death. I will take you to the training centre to become a Scythe, like me.”

“A Scythe? You mean, this is your job? Taking souls back to Styx?” She spoke,

“Yeah-” he started,

“Wait, I’ve just seen you for the first time in 37 years, and this is what I’ve done first thing?” She began,

“It-” Then he was enveloped in a hug. 37 years since he had felt this, and it felt nice.

“Thanks mum,” tears were welling, “shall we go?” She took a breath,

“Okay.”


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By Rebecca Yang January 31, 2020

But now

It’s all gone


Nothing but

A thing

Of the past


But now

You’re not here


Nothing but

A shadow

In the darkness


But now

I’m all alone


Nothing but

A shell

Of a person


People are

So hard

To understand


So tell me


Why am I

Spending time


Trying

To find

Answers


When I

Don’t even know

My own


Why am I

Wasting time


Hunting

For

A response