Ignorance of Beauty

  • By Kaitlyn Leung
  • 30 Sep, 2019

I once came across a short story for children that taught the importance of inner beauty.

This parable is the tale of a young woman with the world’s most impeccable, pristine and flawless heart. One day, she stood in the middle of a crowded marketplace and shouted:

“People, look here, for I have the most beautiful heart in the world.”

Many people who saw the heart were mesmerized by its perfection; it was a beautiful dark color, shaped nicely, and its appearance bore not a single flaw or faded scar.

However, an old woman came stumbling forward, leaning on her cane.

“That isn’t true, for I have the most beautiful heart in the world,” she said.

The young woman challenged her by asking to see her heart. When the old woman showed it to her, the former laughed in her face, for the heart showed to her was full of flaws. The surface was rough and uneven, and had ugly scars all over. Moreover, the heart looked incomplete, as though bits and pieces of various shapes, sizes and colors were joined together.

Looking at the old woman’s heart, the young woman started laughing and said to her,

“You are demented; this heart is full of wounds and scars, and mine has no flaws. How can you say that your heart is beautiful?”

“My dear girl, my heart is just as beautiful as yours, if not more.” The old woman replied. “Do you see these scars? Each one represents a moment when I shared love with someone else. When I give love to someone, I also give them a piece of my heart, and receive one in return to replace the piece I lost. I give different pieces to everyone, and don’t always receive love from those to whom I gave mine. That’s why my heart is full of uneven pieces.”

The young woman folded her arms with disbelief.

“Your heart is full and bears no scars.You’ve never shared love with anybody,” the old woman continued, “and the color indicates that you’ve never received any love in return. Now tell me, what good does your heart do if you won’t ever use it?”

*

The late Dale Carnegie was the developer of a series of courses on self improvement that garnered a great deal of attention, and one of the things he said was that of all the things people ever do with their lives, there are only two motivators: the sex urge and the desire to be important. I think there is one more that he forgot, something that only children and a small handful of adults truly possess, something that real artists, teachers, musicians and authors would recognise as priceless. I am referring to the deep, burning, unquenchable desire to see beauty in at all times, in all places.

Very few adults in our society are fortunate enough to be able to go around without their eyebrows furrowed and lips turned down in a frown, because their minds are too busy being focused on work, problems, labour and chores lying in front of them. There are so many pressing issues, things that need to be dealt with immediately, that we march straight from our homes to another building without noticing the beautiful, cloudless sky, yet we do notice, and feel a stab of annoyance when it rains.

How many of us are unknowingly caught up in trying to exist that we forget to live? How many of us are so busy pursuing success that we walk straight past indescribable beauty that will reveal itself to us, if we only care enough to look? Those who yearn for beauty will see beauty, because they are the ones that radiate love like the old woman, and receive love in return. They receive love, because to see beauty in all places is to receive love from the universe. “It is,” to quote Nicholas Sparks, “the best kind of love, the kind that awakens the soul; that makes us reach for more, that plants fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds.”

Beauty is something discovered in the blooming of a bright spring flower, the soothing taste of a Bavarian sugar cookie, or the plaintive words of a vicar’s eulogy. It’s something that exists all around each and every one of us. We simply have to open our eyes to see it.



By Lynette Chan January 31, 2020

“Passage for Scythe #316, please.” A card was thrown upon the desk as the tired guard looked up at its owner.

“Radley Ames, on assignment to… London?”  

“Yup, that’s right.” Radley nodded.

“Ok then,” the guard said, “you know the rules?”

“Yea-”

“No interacting with humans, no deviation from your assignment and no bringing back anything from the mortal world. Once done, guide your assignment to the rehabilitation centre for it to start training as a Scythe.” The guard leaned over, opening the gates of Styx.

“Thanks!” He grinned as he darted through the gate. Just in time, the train was arriving. He jumped onto the train, full of other Scythes on their way to their missions.

“This stop: Central Styx. Next stop: New York, America.” The female voice crackled through the speaker. Radley sat down with a sigh and cracked open the file, it was going to be a long journey and he still hadn’t checked who his mission was. His mission was… her? He hadn’t seen her since he died, 37 years ago. He ran a hand through his spiked hair; he was suddenly glad the train ride was going to be long.


He was back in his hospital bed. There was a voice, loud and disturbing. He turned to see what was happening. Was something wrong?

“No, he can’t die now! He’s too young and I refuse to believe there’s nothing you can do!”

“I’m sorry, it’s out of my hands. At best, I believe he has around 3 months left.”

Her sobs grew louder, almost drowning out his panic. Something was on his cheek, a tear. Then suddenly the sobs were fading and the room was spinning…


“This stop: London, England. Next stop: Barcelona, Spain.” He stumbled out the door, cursing under his breath. He mulled over the memories he had seen and forgotten long ago. His time in that dull room was an old phase of his life and he had already started a new one in his un-life as a Scythe. Thoughts spun round and round his head as he stepped through the portal into Charing Cross station. He looped through and around people; though he was invisible to the swarm around him, he still didn’t feel like bumping into people. He stepped outside in the cool weather, savouring the chilly bite of the breeze and the Picadilly Circus. However, he couldn’t stand here forever, he had a job to do. He pulled out the file to check the place of death. Died of old age in her home while asleep. “Shes always wanted to move here. I never really understood why.” He chuckled to himself.


“The doctor says you haven’t got long. We’ve only got a few more months before...” She trailed off,

“It’s ok,” he smiled sadly, “we’ll just have to make the most out of it.”

“There’s still so much for you to do! You haven’t even finished school, and we still haven’t moved to that nice flat near the Picadilly Circus.” Tears were quickly wiped away by a rapid hand,

“I stll don’t know why you want to move there.” Sad chuckles were exchanged as they relished one of the few moments they had left.

There was the door, all he had to do was walk through it. He didn’t even have to knock; just take a step through the door. She was just another mission that he needed to fulfill. No big deal, just go in and guide her to the training centre. He had been doing this everyday since he finished training, it wasn’t hard. He sighed, it had to happen sooner or later. Reluctantly, he stepped through the door and found… absolutely nothing. “Where is she?” Radley thought to himself, He started looking around the messy apartment, looking for clues on her whereabouts. There were unfinished knitting projects, half-read books lying around and so many photos of her and him and his family. One in particular caught his eye, right before his death, of him and her and the hospital. One last happy moment, taken a week or so before his passing. As much as he wanted to reminisce, he had a mission to carry out. “Where would she go?” Usually after people die, they loiter near their place of death, it wasn’t often Radley had had to hunt them down. Then out of the corner of his eye, another photo, thrown half-hazardly on a chair. He picked it up A family picnic, in Green Park. “Of course” He rushed out of the flat, this was one of her favourite places, of course she’d go there.


“Who wants the last sandwich?” She announced to the family,

“Me! I want it!” a girl ran to the basket hurriedly,

“Nope Sam, it’s mine” Radley smirked, snatching it out of her hands.

“What?! Noo! Mum!” Sam whined, Radley took a bite out of his stolen good with a victorious smile on his face.

“Radley, I-I need to talk to you” He turned and saw her face, pale and scared, and he knew. Something happened, something terrible.


“Okay, I’m here now. Where is she?” He looked around happy families and green shrubbery. He wandered around the park, looking for her among the small crowd of people enjoying their lives. He watched benches, picnics and ice-cream vans, she seemed to be nowhere found. There was one last place he hadn’t been yet. The fountain. He had a feeling she was going to be there, but he couldn’t bring himself to go. He headed there with a heavy heart, each step reminding him of his old life. And there she was, just sitting there. Watching everyone. It was time.

“Mum?”


“Mum?” He questioned as she lead him to the fountain, “What’s wrong?”

“I think it’s best if you sit down for this.” she sighed as she guided him down,

“Well, the doctors called-” she started,

“And?” Radley asked,

“You, um,” She sniffled, “You have cancer, lung cancer.”. His eyes widened in shock, he was only 15, how did this happen? “I’m so sorry,” she embraced him, “but we can get through this. We will.”. He never saw the tears falling from her eyes.


“Radley?” Her voice was barely a whisper.

“Yep. Hi mum.” He smiled through the awkwardness,

“Wait, I don’t understand. Am I dead? Why are you here? Are we going to heaven? What happened?” Question after question that he needed to answer.

“Well, we are both now deceased,” he paused, giving her time to digest, “I’m here, because I’ve been assigned to take you to Styx.”

“Styx?”

“Yes, there’s not really a heaven or hell, it’s just like the real world, except with new jobs and experiences. It’s like life after death. I will take you to the training centre to become a Scythe, like me.”

“A Scythe? You mean, this is your job? Taking souls back to Styx?” She spoke,

“Yeah-” he started,

“Wait, I’ve just seen you for the first time in 37 years, and this is what I’ve done first thing?” She began,

“It-” Then he was enveloped in a hug. 37 years since he had felt this, and it felt nice.

“Thanks mum,” tears were welling, “shall we go?” She took a breath,

“Okay.”


11

By Rebecca Yang January 31, 2020

But now

It’s all gone


Nothing but

A thing

Of the past


But now

You’re not here


Nothing but

A shadow

In the darkness


But now

I’m all alone


Nothing but

A shell

Of a person


People are

So hard

To understand


So tell me


Why am I

Spending time


Trying

To find

Answers


When I

Don’t even know

My own


Why am I

Wasting time


Hunting

For

A response